just thought I would write this entry before I have to go back to work.. some pretty interesting things have occured today.

It turns out that Meagan (ony of my co-workers) is also working her ass off for a trip to Australia as well! She had already baught her ticket and she is just saving up for spending cash. She is also leaving in december and is going to be there for the new years, like me! I have also decided to go, NO MATTER WHAT... and I feel the poll will agree with me on that one. I am going to use this oppourtinity for some competition between us two, to see who can get the money and the most stuff first :) Who knows, we might go down together, or atleast see eachother there!

I was eavsdropping on some customers as I was cleaning tables, they were talking about the internet and how its a bad influence to their kids. "I can show you a site that tells you step-by-step how to make bombs" one said. Thinking in my head of course: "Uhh yeah, so can I, just go to Chapters and pick up a book". The other one replied "The internet is such a bad influence, thats why I only let them use it for 1 hour a day". I thought "Uhh... yeah, so you only let them watch the news for an hour a day, or read porn or listen to the radio or watch rated R movies." THe point I am trying to make is this: You can get all the bad stuff and good stuff from the internet in real life look at book stores, on tv, in the news. The only catch is that it's easier to find it on the internet than anywhere else. These people have to realize that if you are going to cut your chrisldren from the net because "it's a bad influence" then you should seal them in a box and feed them through a tube. Everywhere you look there are "bad influences" *sigh*

Back to work......

"The shortest distance between two points is under construction."
-- Noelie Alito

The first day back to school & I am already pissed off at this place. We had a minuite of silence for those kids that were killed in Colorado. Why did we have to waste our time with this bullshit? I mean if our school spent this much time for 16 lives, what about the Kosovo Masacare or the Oklahoma City bombing or those people that were killed in Montreal in the late 80's? Thats the thing I hate about this school is what ever the student council (which is supposed to reprisent the student body) thinks is how everyone should think. A good example would be their campaign against using "scented products". People were complaing about perfume. First of all, making us NOT wear scented products is against our freedom of speech. I only wish I was there to bring up this little debate during the assembly.

Samantha called yesterday, she wants me to open instead of working the banquet. I need to get the hours so I think that I am either:

A) Stay at work the whole time.
B) Come home, sleep for a bit then go back to work.

I want the hours but I have to open on Sunday, so I dont want to be tired. I will probably make my decision tonight. I also want to see Go, but noone else wants to see it. I think that I might go see it by my self. Or I might invite Erin. I havent seen her since last summer. It would be nice to see her again and catch up on some news.

I was at chapters today, just to kill some time and read up on my Palm Pilot. I was looking around and I noticed that almost eveyone had a rose -- I wanted one! It turns out that chapters just launched their new website and that the roses were to celebrate this occasion. They are really nice, with a red bow that says "www.chapters.ca" in gold all around it. I gave it to my mommy, she liked it :)

"*Grrroooaaann* Have a Great Day!"
-Adrian Amburg

Well I got everything all cleaned up today.. the computer room looks ok, and my room is "clean". Just had to make my mom happy cause daddy is coming home tomorrow! He is here untill Monday I think, then its back off to work up north. I miss him, it's just not the same without him being home. I am excited to go to the airport to pick him up... I LOOOOVEEEE the airport :)

I started working on my little project at Rogers. I was picking out music tonight, that stuff sucks HARD. I really wish we could use commercial music. Adrian said that it would be cool to use commerical stuff if we didn't air it, and if I dont put it on the net saying that I created the stuff at Rogers. I will see what sounds good. If I can use the roalty free stuff, then I will! I would like to publish/air the thingy. I dont even know what its called, Station Promo or something.... The reason why I can't name it is because I dont know what I am doing yet! I just have the opening figured out and thats it.

*sigh* I still dont want to do school... grrr I am so out of it. There are only two big projects that I can think of, my English ISU and my World Issues Presentation. I have a comptuers thing coming up as well. Those are the only things that I am looking forward to -- why? Because I love doing presentations and projects. Its better than homework, plus I get to express my creativity! Oh yeah! The electric bean called me today! w00t. They are looking for help and Mark (the guy who called) talked to me for a bit, asking me a few questions and the such. Then he said that he will contact me shortly regarding an interview. I really do hope he calls me back.. I want that job SOOOOO badly! I am going to call him on Friday just to 'confirm' a date that I can come in for an interview :)

I installed Linux (Red Hat) today and got most of everything up and running. Sound is going (after some tweaking) and I have most of my apps up and running. The only thing I have to do now, is get the routing set up properly. I can't find ANY how-to's or books that will tell me how to set up routing (so the upstairs computer can access the ned) on the machine. All I get is the stupid "Linux Router Project" which I need a whole new computer to run on. aggggg! Someone help me!

According to the latest official figures, 43% of all statistics are totally worthless.

I havn't gone to school in the past two days. I just don't have the passion for it anymore, and I know when I return I am going to have TONS of work to do... which is another reason I don't really want to go back . I just want to work and work and work, then go to Australia. I would do that, but my paretns want me to graduate. I can see why, but I can graduate now if I want.. I have my 5 englishes and I don't really need the OACs, because I am going to college (or atleast I hope). This is my last day home, I am going to make an effort to get my ass in school.

I think I have a stupid cavity, right next to my other one. Mom said it was because the dentist didn't fill it properly. It' doesn't hurt that much, only when something cold is on it. I see the dentist in June I think, so I will just wait untill then to get eveything fixed and patched up. My wisdom teeth are coming in too, I can feel the right one poking out. I wonder how that is going to affect my teeth and if they are going to be needed to be taken out. The dentist said that I only have the top ones, which is good.

Windows NT has been giving me a hard time lately.. I think I might switch back to Win98. I have to much stuff that I want to do and not enough ram. Plus Windows98 is less of a resource hog than NT, plus I have better support for hardware. Right now I can't use my capture card in NT, I always have to dual boot to 98 then capture. I have my swap file on a 80 MB Paritition, but NT is reporting that the file is 108MB. How is that possible? Well some programs don't like this (like Premiere) and will refuse to run untill I resize the partition and reboot... which is one of the hassles NT is giving me. Ahh crap, my sysadmin is complaining again that I am using EE too write this entry. He doesn't like me using it I think, because whenever it crashes it doesnt leave memory. It just sits there using up processor time.

I have to clean up this room and my room by tomorrow... Daddy is coming home for a couple of days, I have to pick him up at the Airport on Thursday. I love going to the airport... its so cool. It always ignites my passion for flying, which is what I want to do too!

Ingrate, n.:
A man who bites the hand that feeds him, and then complains of indigestion.

Another boreing day at the rat races... Except this was a little more interesting :) I was in the kitchen in the morning, listening to Mix 99.9 and making sandwhiches (sp). Singing had actuallly having a GOOD TIME making 100 sandwiches for the day. The rest of the day, I was the short order cook.. doing french fries, hamburgers, drinks and other rudementary stuff.

Right now I am helping Lizzy with her webpage!! heeh.. I am glad that she is getting one up and running, she is becoming a geek :) She is using www.gurlpages.com, which is like Geocities, but with a female perspective. You can see her webpage, but it's still in the development stage. She is going to throw pics of her and her family up there, so people can learn all about her.

I am almost done The Merchant of Venice, have to get that done for my ISU that is coming up, if I do good on that, and since my seminar was good.. I should be able to keep my mark up. Otherwise it's going down the tubes, and I dont want that! Short I know... but I might add to it later :) Oh yeah incase you didn't read yesterdays entry very late at night (like 11pm or so) then go back to it now, I added some stuff because i felt compelled to write more -- ENJOY!

"Remember! Unix spelt backwards is Xinu"
- Unknown

Sh's the best, Buttagal is the best! I trade mp3s with her and she gave me some good pics in the wee early hours. As a matter of fact, I am listening to Robert Miles now! Thanks butta! She also mentioned that she enjoys reading my journal, I was honored that someone would find me interesting enough to read all about it! Its comments like that , that keep me want to write about my events...

Went to chapters last night, and gome some reading materials... Shift and Wired. Both had some interesting articles in it, it was nice to have money again... that $300 didn't go far (after bills) but I was able to go to the coffee shopa nd read my newly purchased mags. I need to save up for my trip to New York (and Australia), stupid american currecny costs soo much.. plus its New York, so its even more expensive. I am hope to meet up with Dan, it would be nice to talk to him for a couple of hours.. who knows I would really like to see his house and takes some pics with his webcam just to show all my net friends.

Shit, 6:15 PM already, I have to get ready for the movie... sorry for the shortness.. tomorrows will be longer.. (by the way I worked 10 hours today).

"The man who follows the crowd will usually get no further than the crowd. The man who walks alone is likely to find himself in places no one has ever been."
-- Alan Ashley-Pitt

Annendum (sp): Yeah well, I have more to write... so sue me.

I went to see The Matrix for the second time today, still a dumb story but I was there for the FX. I am also planning a trip to FL for the weekend. The only problem is which weekend? I work weekends and I already asked for New York off so I cna't ask for another weekend off -- unless.... I think I have a good excuse I will say that I am spending the weekend with my friend at umm... a University that I applied to and he is giving me a tour and stuff. .. That way I can get off work.. uh 'ligitamely'. This is only a plan, I still don't know if its fgoing to fall through. It all depends if Liz will let me stay with her for 2 days, cause I dont want to blow $500 on a weekend trip, just the plane ticket and some $$ for food and spending. I am hoping to get like a $110 stanby ticket and just hop on the plane and go. Then come back and back to school on monday, possibly get a tan or something.. "Why are you so tanned?" "cause I was in FL for the weekend" "Sure Blake, whatever.. you lie all the time!" I can picture that now!! heh, how wrong they would be! Anyways... it's 11:05 PM and I have to work at 7Am tomorrow.. I hope it rains, I dont want it to be busy. Plus Lizzy is about to call

and I quote:

" humm someone hasnt been doin there journal"

well Liz, are you happy?!?!? I know everyone... I havn't been updating my journal in a couple of days, I have been such a busy person. Everything this past week has gone fine (except my two tests) I smoked my "you sucked the first time cause you were sick and now you have a second chance" Humber College test. Today at the studio wasn't happy and cheery as usual. I detected some sad and disturbing vibes from everyone. Nikki metioned that she has some trouble in her personal life, plus a whole lot of shit was dumped on her that she has to get done this week. It seems like when nothing can go possibly wrong, you are up to your eye balls in work, and your are hungry that you get the dreaded call that your gradfather has had a heart attack or that your mom got in a car accident. I have a feeling that is exactly what happened to Nikki today. I didn't feel right asking her though, I did feel awkward. I hope everything works out for the better.

I also talked to her about my Documentry that I want to do. I orignially was going to do it about Australia, but now I think I am going to do it on Toronto. I have a buch of slides that I can throw on to beta, plus I will dump some of my promo shit for Ontario and Toronto from my cdrom to beta as well. I wish I had access to a camera so that I can tape stuff that I want, Mark wont let me use his and Damon doesn't own his. Well we will see how it goes, it's only going to be 5 or 8 min, so I can toss it on a 10 min tape.... my only concern is if I can find a 10 min VHS tape so that I can give one to Liz and keep one for my self. I think I am also going to buy my own Beta SP tapes, so that I can keep them... two should do one as a master and one for raw footage. This will be something that I am going to toss on the website, and keep for a demo reel or soemthihgn. This is my first out of school production and I want it to be good, yet, its my first @Rogers (no pun intended) production, so I am going to have to get used to the equipment.

Part of the reason why I havn't been updating this is because of ClearNET Weather. This has gotten WAY outta hand and I am expanding it. I have the databse cgi running up to about 80% now, just some minor adjustments. All I have to do is write the perl code to read the database then do stuff depending on the info inside the database. That is going to be the hardest part, because I don't really know what the hell I am doing. sooo if someone out there who happens to be reading this would like to help me...... e-mail me and we will talk! Otherwise it will be those force to learn while you create thingys..

"Of course there's no reason for it, it's just our policy."

Another non-exciting day in the life of Blake Crosby!

I did some updates to the page -- I felt like it! Put up a nice resume and everything, I just know its not going to be updated until 3 years after it should be. I also started keeping track of the pages that people go to, but for some reason the script isn't displaying them in order of most popular, which kinda sucks. I am also trying to get the poll script to work... I am waiting for a reply back from the site that I downloaded it from to see if they can solve my problem.

Test tomorrow...two infact, Math and English... and both of them I am going to fail. I have NO clue whatsoever as to what the hell is going on. The english test is on Brave New World, havn't read the book yet. The math test is on elipses, hyperbolas and parabolas. I think I will do ok in it, because it's not that hard stuff... but I still have the chance of failing. I was pissing of Mr. Morrison today pretty badly, he was actually going to kick me out of the class -- a first for him. Liz and I had fun again last night :) We tried out some new and exciting things, from what I gathered from her moans... she was having a good time :)

Another short one, but I have work to do.

"May the fleas of a thousand camels infest one of your erogenous zones"
-Unknown

What a day!!!

Last night Liz & I had our first fight. It was about something stupid too! Her cousin was telling me all this shit about her that sounded true, but according to Liz, is not true. I didn't know who to beleive. I thought about everything that had happened and made my decision this morning. It was to early to call her, so I wrote a letter & sent it to her via e-mail. I checked my mail this afternoon at school -- nothing....I will check again when I get home.

I still havent heard back from the Electric Bean. I told them that I want to have the meeting tommorrow, but I havent heard anything back yet.

I have a really busy day today. After school I have to walk to the doctor's office (ewww!!). Then I only have about 30 min. before I have to leave to Rogers. Then I have to get my stuff ready for Socioloqy. I also have some pretty big stuff due for school the next week. I have also been skipping Math & Physics a lot lately... I have to go there in about 25 min. (I am writtinq this on my Palm Pilot in English) and I just want to go home. I am so sick of school & with the warmer weather here, it's going to be even harder to concentrate on school. I have to read "A Brave New World" this weekend. I also have to read "A Merchant of Venice", I am already done about 1/2 of the play. I then have to do a seminar on the religion of Brave New World. I also have to do an essay compairing the the hatred of Jews in A Merchant of Venice with the hatred for Heathcliff in Wuthering Heights. So I have a feeling this is going to be a busy weekend -- plus I have to work early sat. & sun. 6AM-2PM.

Anyways, I hope everything turns out for the better with Lizzy.

"Really ?? What a coincidence, I'm shallow too!!" - Unknown

Well, some good news and bad news (well sorta). . .

Let's go for the good news first! Liz said that she can come to Australia with me 100%.. she already asked her mom. THAT ROCKS! The only thing is that will it ever happen? I know I will be going, but will liz actually go? Only time will tell... Some other good news: I got a card from lizzy!!! The occasion? 2 month anniversary is today.. like I said before, doesn't feel that long. Some more good news: I am going to start posting my dreams that I have on here... the reason? I have none.. I keep a dream log normally, but I think it will be an added bonus to my journal. Does the good news ever end??? I was talking to Lisa (my aussie friend) last night for about 2 hours... we were talking about news thats happeneing down there and about what I am going to do for a job when I get there. The nice this is that she might let me stay with her for a bit while I can find something... a problem will be if liz comes, what I was thinking of doing is going there first, then get liz to come at a later date. That way I can get a nice place and stuff. Also I dont think that Lisa would allow BOTH of us to stay with her, plus I want some time with just Lisa and I, I have known her for 2 years now so I guess you can call us friends :) Nikki, my friend and producer at Newmarket television wrote me a nice e-mail... here is what she said:

*snip. snip* *poof*

I am never suprized at the talents of my volunteers! I feel almost like
I'm spying on you! *s* or I've crossed the line - or invaded where I
shouldn't have -
BUT AT THE SAME TIME ...
I'm really amazed at your site - I havent' really seen anyone open up to
the world like you have - good luck with the site, your Girlfriend! and
everything talk to you at the station
*smiles & waves*

*snip. snip* *poof*

I thought that was super nice. Most of the people I uused to know thought I was some sort of freak for doing this, but they are just closeminded retards. My best friend Mark doesn't mind, but he is just ashamed of being my friend cause of the porn fiasco, as long as no one from school is around, he hangs with me. Nikki, if you are reading this... YOU ROCK!

The (sorta) bad news: I was fucking FREEEEEZING last night in my room... I had left the window open, and it was windy as hell, so I got up at 6 am, and got a sleeping bag then used it to keep me warm. It must have been atleast 5 or 10 C in my room..I hate nothing more than being cold when you are trying to sleep. I was talking to Dave Penstone on ICQ last night, and somehow we got to the topic of my little porn escapade. Some naked pictures of my self got into the hands of someone at school and they distributed them to everyone. Dave was mentioning to me how small my cock was. I told him that if I was concerned with my size, do you think I would post my pics on the net? NO! plus my gf doesn't mind -- so what do I care?

Lieberman's Law:
Everybody lies, but it doesn't matter since nobody listens.

This is my first time writing my journal entry on my palm pilot! It is going faster than I thought, but still not as fast & accurate as a keyboard.

I am writing this in computers class, we have a supply teacher. So far nothing too exciting has happened -- just normal ole school. My grandparents left today, going home to montreal. I wont see them until this summer when I go to the cottage.

Right now I am uploading some pics I took with the school camera. It's for a massive school project, where we have to make a virtual tour of the school -- the pics are here . I think that I am also going to use some of the pics for my friends section.

Tomorrow will be the 2 month mark of going out with Lizzy! It doesn't seem that long, time flys so fast. I cant wait for when she gets her butt in Toronto this August. I have so much planned for her.

I keep having dreams about Australia! For some reason I can't get that country out of my mind. I also want to go to see Lisa. She will probably let me stay with her for a couple of weeks, wich would take some burden off my wallet. Plus I think it will be nice to live with an authentic aussie family. I plan on never coming back to Canada, as long as I have a decent job. I can keep in touch with my family by e-mail & my webpage. Lizzy wants to go with me, I don't think it's going to happen...

"Do or do not, there is no try"
- Yoda

Well well well... I was listening to JJJ radio this morning, one of the two aussie stations I listen to. Justin, who is the DJ asked for some e-mails, so I gave him one. He mentioned it and had mistakenly said that Toronto was the capital of Canada. I and along with "27 million e-mails" corrected him telling him that infact Ottawa is the capital of Canada. Here is a little snippet of the correction, I was setting up the tape machine when he metioned my e-mail so I couldn't tape it :(

Grandparents are here, and I talked to them about my parents 25th wedding anniversary. Turns out its next year... so that takes off some pressure for this year. They are willing to do something which is good and split the cost. Right now I have to worry about other things like school, work and my big trip.

I dont plan on doing anything big today, prolly get some stuff for Lizzy and clean up my room. My dad is leaving on buisness for 6 weeks in Northern Ontario (Sudbury), that is going to suck. I think he is coming back at the 1/2 way mark to visit us, then off back to work. Speaking about work, I kinda want to find another job that pays more... I want to make atleast 10k this year... Sofar the course is allright, I just can't wait untill we get the events happening. It's the banquets that I look forward to the most, they are fun.

"Never eat more than you can lift."
- Miss Piggy