Stuck Insideout

Just Dissapear
Friday, June 28, 2002 - 01:06:46 Permalink | On this day in 2006 | On this day in 2001

I feel like starting over, starting fresh.

Move to a country some place, one way ticket. New name, new past, new future. I think that would be cool! Blake Crosby is no more - he exists, but cannot be found. Maybe he's dead? Abducted?

One day, I am just going to dissapear.

You want to get tea bagged?
Monday, June 24, 2002 - 20:06:06 Permalink | On this day in 2001

Spent the weekend at gords cottage - had a great time! It was nice that Alex and his Girlfriend came up.

A few friends saw some of the pictures of the event. Andrew, my australian friend, had this to say about Gavins "Fosters" shirt:

<Andys> wtf is that a Fosters tshirt ??!?!?!! <Devastatr> yeah <Devastatr> ;) <Andys> !@#%!@&#^!$&@%# <Andys> HAHAHAH <Andys> ;) <Devastatr> why's that so funny? <Andys> i .. can't explain ;) <Andys> you remember, dont you? fosters is like, the totally gayest brand of beer here.. the only people who drink it are foreigners <Devastatr> yeah <Devastatr> I explained that to them <Devastatr> but non-australians dont know that - so they think they are cool by wearing it ;) <Andys> yep <Devastatr> and therefore, other people who see that shirt, also thinks that its wearer is cool!

Don't really have much else to say. Talked to liz for a bit today - hoping she is going to call me later tonight :D

No NYC
Friday, June 21, 2002 - 01:06:29 Permalink

Meh, not going to new york - aww well. Heading up to Gords cottage tomorrow for the weekend - yipee!

not in the mood to write :/

went biking, spent the day with mark and gord.

going to finish case/set up of mp3 player, still waiting for james to finish up with my lcd - I am going to order my serial lcd from matrix-orbital soon.

that is all. (oh yeah! some guy emailed me [yay I love the net] with a c++ program he wrote to control my scrolling sign thingy!!! so hopefully I will be able to send it automatic updates and use it as an information display! now.. I still need to hack up my Audrey!)

Where's Liz?
Monday, June 17, 2002 - 23:06:34 Permalink | On this day in 2006

I'm borrowing marks camera for this week. Want to document some stuff before and during my trip to NYC. I have thrown up a website (nyc.blakecrosby.com) for the trip. Small, simple.

Tomorrow is going to involve finishing my laundry. I am also going to call some print houses to get my business cards printed up. Clean up my room.

I havn't had a single asthma attack today! Yay! I'm about 95% cured.

Puffers, Lobsters, Rain
Sunday, June 16, 2002 - 14:06:27 Permalink | On this day in 2001

Its been a super wet weekend. Rain on friday, rain on saturday, and rain today! I personally dont mind it.

Got my haircut on Thursday, nothing exciting same old style ;) I need a new one!

Friday Mark and I saw "The Sum Of All Fears". It was a good movie - not AWESOME, not SHITTY. Yesterday we went to a "Lobsterfest" at his marina. Saw Mr. Timpson there (my grade 11 biology teacher), ate some tasty lobster and had some $4 iced cream. I really like his new boat - more room to laze around in.

I seem to be getting better :) I only had one asthma attack yesterday, YAY! None, so far today . I should be cured by wednesday :) If not, off to the doctors I go :)

New York is a go :D Yay! heh, just need to make sure I do Laundry before then ;) So much dirty clothes :(

Interesting Visitors
Tuesday, June 11, 2002 - 20:06:32 Permalink | On this day in 2003

I'm bored, and not really sure what to write in todays entry. So I figured I would let you know some of the interesting people/companies that are visiting websites I own, run, or mirror!

blakecrosby.com:

- jbeyer.student.princeton.edu (humm I dont know anyone that goes to princton)

- wcs3.norfolk.nipr.mil (I dont know anyone in the US Military either!)

- arrisi.com (don't know anyone from there either!)

Postgresql Mirror (www2.ca.postgresql.org):

- *.jan.cs.concordia.ca (A lot of people from Concordia Uni)

- dollar.usec.sun.com (They were the dot in ".com")

- humpty.pwgsc.gc.ca (Public Works and Government Services Canada)

- incen.crc.ca (Communications Research Centre of Canada)

- pa-x.dec.com (Compaq)

- tron.donjuan.ca ( Organization: Juan Herrera de la Fuente Description: Tales of an ordinary man, living an ordinary life.)

Wheee! Log files are fun!

I Can Breathe!
Sunday, June 9, 2002 - 18:06:57 Permalink | On this day in 2004 | On this day in 2001

Hah, last night was funny. Just after eating tasty McDonalds (at 3:45am mind you) I puked it back up. It wasn't cause of anything related to the food. Gord and Arden ( my brother) were making me laugh so hard, that I puked! I guess it was due to the fact that I couldn't breath either (due to large asthma attack). They were fucking pissing me off, cause they wouldn't stop asking me if I was alright. Then laughing at me because my barf/vomit/regurgitation looked like poutine! Silly boys.

I feel much better today! Went for a pretty hard bike ride with Mark before work. I brought my puffer (this time) just incase, didn't have to use it! Today was the last day for my anti-biotics (yeah, it was only for 5 days, 500Mg first day, then 250Mg for the other 4 days). I would like to thank Pfizer for making such a wonderful prodcut. All hail Zithromax(tm) ((2R,3S,4R,5R,8R,10R,11R,12S,13S,14R)-13-[(2,6-dideoxy-3-C-methyl-3-O-methyl-a-Lribo-hexopyranosyl)oxy]-2-ethyl-3,4,10-trihydroxy-3,5,6,8,10,12,14-heptamethyl-11-[[3,4,6-trideoxy-3-(dimethylamino)-b-D-xylo-hexopyranosyl]oxy]-1-oxa-6-azacyclopentadecan-15-one. for you chemistry folk)!

Some new songs on my "I Like List":

"Love Foolosophy" by Jamiroquai

"Love at First Sight" by Kylie Minogue

"Happy Messy Love" by Rachael Kane

"A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton

Heh, 50% of that list is Australian Artists. It's a shame not a lot of their music gets play time here. (You probably never heard of Rachael Kane).

A road trip to NYC is planned, with Mark and Eric (possibly Damon). Last week of June. I wasn't able to go with Gord a month ago, so this is my time to make up for it! :) We need to pick up some of Erics stuff (he lives in Manhatten?) Hopefully I can convince Kyle to work two 16 hour shifts that weekend :)

A summer time :) Longest day is approaching quick :( What to get my dad for Fathers Day.. humm...

IRC r00ls
Saturday, June 8, 2002 - 00:06:40 Permalink

Some people say I dont have a lot of geek entries. Well here's one :)

Andys and I set up our own IRC network last night. We were getting sick of austnet gayness, so we decided to create the ClubYAY IRC network. Only two servers now, one in Canada (me) and one in Oz (Andy):

[ircops on irc(2)] 25% [total users on irc(8)] [unknown connections(0)] [total servers on irc(2)] (avg. 4 users per server) [total channels created(1)] (avg. 8 users per channel) Current local users: 2 Max: 2 Current global users: 8 Max: 9

w00t w00t!

I also got Psycho Stats going on my box, so now I can crunch the LKY CS log files. We are moving the website to my box...hopefully I will get admin access on our CS server (instead of having to pay $10USD)

I am working on a Cold Fusion project for Digido, my old employers in Oz. Coming along nicely. I am actually enjoying it - never thought I would miss coding in Cold Fusion. It's a pretty simple/easy project. I got a nice *detailed* flow chart (whooo, 7 pages) so its pretty much just turning that into code :)

I'm heading over to Alex's house tomorrow. Going to talk bind/dns all day. He's also going to show me his new office. Then its off to the CBC - yay!

This is for Mark: "ju5+ h4x0r +h3 j0UrN4|_!!!!!!!!!!!!"

ass-mar!
Wednesday, June 5, 2002 - 17:06:34 Permalink | On this day in 2005 | On this day in 2003 | On this day in 2001

I seem to have a brochial(sp) infection. So I am on anti-biotics, as well as two differnt types in inhalers. Yay!

Mark was mad at me for mentioning his conversation in my journal yesterday. The reason why I did it, so that I could get other peoples opinion on the situation (thanks guys!). It wasn't to make him look bad or anything.

Mark does not hate Liz. He only met her once. He want's it to be like it was last year (which doesn't make sence, because Arden brought HIS girlfriend last year). Mark also mentioned that he wanted it to be a "guys week" with no girls. This is the reason why he doesn't want to go. I want Mark to come. And I also want Liz and Gord and Arden to come too. However, Mark doesn't want to drive up (even if there are other people in his car) and he doesn't want to be the 5th person in my car. I think I have tried to accomodate him enough.

man, I have only been at work for just over an hour - this is going to be a loooong day :(

friends > shagz
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I tend to agree with that. "Bros before hoes". Your friends always come before your girlfriend. However, that's not the issue here.

Backgrounder: Mark and I (along with my brother and his girlfriend) headed up to my cottage last year for 4 days. We had a great time. This year I wanted to bring Lisette, Gord, Mark, and My brother. Mark said: "I'm not coming if Lisette is coming". I want Mark to come, but that's his decision. So today I found out that Lisette is coming 100% (yay!)

[23:40] Devastator: found out today, that liz is onboard 100% for cottage [23:40] ~*555 SouL*~: fuck [23:40] ~*555 SouL*~: and screw you for wantting the woman [23:40] ~*555 SouL*~: you and your man ways [23:40] ~*555 SouL*~: >:T [23:40] Devastator: pfft [23:41] Devastator: you can still come [23:41] Devastator: sheesh [23:41] Devastator: its your decision [23:41] ~*555 SouL*~: how [23:41] ~*555 SouL*~: no room [23:41] Devastator: plenty of room [23:41] Devastator: car can fit 5 people [23:41] ~*555 SouL*~: 5 people for ummm [23:41] ~*555 SouL*~: how long? [23:41] ~*555 SouL*~: yeah [23:41] Devastator: 5 hours? [23:41] ~*555 SouL*~: with two busty types [23:41] Devastator: it wont be gay like last time [23:42] Devastator: if you arn't coming, then bryna is [23:42] ~*555 SouL*~: fine [23:42] ~*555 SouL*~: :'( [23:42] *** zepplen11@hotmail.com (~*555 SouL*~) has joined the conversation. [23:42] Devastator: what did you do today? [23:42] ~*555 SouL*~: ummmmmmmmm [23:42] ~*555 SouL*~: havn't said it in awhile [23:42] ~*555 SouL*~: but [23:42] ~*555 SouL*~: BUIZ NO! [23:42] Devastator: I thought you were going to call me bakc when you got into aurora [23:42] Devastator: HAHAH [23:43] Devastator: havn't heard that in a while [23:43] Devastator: hung out with Racheal? [23:43] ~*555 SouL*~: well hear it again [23:43] ~*555 SouL*~: BUIZ NO [23:43] Devastator: nice [23:43] ~*555 SouL*~: not really [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: it's too bad i won't be POPPPING farts in the car up to YOUR cottage [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: pft, come to my BOAT will u [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: I THINK NOT [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: i'll bring my [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: GIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRL FRIEND instead! [23:47] Devastator: you're being gay [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: you're gay [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: fuck [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: some chick gets my seat [23:47] ~*555 SouL*~: F that [23:48] Devastator: hey, its your decision. nobody is taking your seat [23:48] ~*555 SouL*~: yes [23:48] Devastator: you're the one that said "im not coming if liz is going" [23:48] Devastator: not me [23:48] ~*555 SouL*~: cause youc an't fit 5 people in your car blake [23:48] Devastator: there are seats for 5 [23:48] ~*555 SouL*~: and like no room for sleeping bags etc etc [23:48] ~*555 SouL*~: member how LITTLE room there was with 4 [23:49] ~*555 SouL*~: be reasonable... [23:49] Devastator: I am [23:49] ~*555 SouL*~: 7 hours [23:49] Devastator: like I said [23:49] ~*555 SouL*~: in your small uncomfy middle back seat [23:49] Devastator: if you arn't coming the 5th seat is going to be filled [23:49] Devastator: you're being such a baby [23:50] ~*555 SouL*~: yeah we'll see [23:50] ~*555 SouL*~: Gord [23:50] ~*555 SouL*~: won't like it either [23:50] ~*555 SouL*~: 5 people [23:50] ~*555 SouL*~: 3 in the back [23:50] ~*555 SouL*~: easy for you you driv [23:50] ~*555 SouL*~: e [23:50] Devastator: he seems to be ok with it [23:51] ~*555 SouL*~: right [23:51] Devastator: ask him [23:51] ~*555 SouL*~: blake [23:51] ~*555 SouL*~: your back seat is NOT comfortable [23:51] ~*555 SouL*~: to pack 3 people in there for 7 hours [23:51] ~*555 SouL*~: would be ridiculous [23:51] ~*555 SouL*~: it was SO not gay last time [23:52] ~*555 SouL*~: it was perfect [23:52] Devastator: cause you had front seat [23:52] ~*555 SouL*~: back seaters lounged [23:52] ~*555 SouL*~: lots of room [23:52] Devastator: thats all you are bitching abouit [23:52] ~*555 SouL*~: what was i bitching about [23:52] ~*555 SouL*~: bitch [23:52] ~*555 SouL*~: and even though [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: you're not going to pack 5 sleeping bags [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: 5 bags [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: into your trunk [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: with pillows [23:53] Devastator: we were able to fit for 4 people [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: BARELy [23:53] Devastator: I dont see why we couldn't fit another one [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: another sleeping bag [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: pillow and bag [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: it was so tight last time [23:53] ~*555 SouL*~: i remember it perfectly [23:53] Devastator: yeah, she is tight ;) [23:54] ~*555 SouL*~: no she's lose as a goose [23:54] Devastator: my car is loose? [23:54] Devastator: no man, she's tight! [23:54] ~*555 SouL*~: yeah yeah... [23:54] ~*555 SouL*~: well i'm not going.... [23:54] ~*555 SouL*~: so that's all i want to talk o fit [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: so give it to Bryna [23:55] Devastator: fine, dont be a bitch to me about it then [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: well i'm going to be anyway [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: tough shit [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: comes with the territory [23:55] Devastator: you're gay [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: and you can tell gord that too [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: cause I know yo uwill [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: so I can hear it from him too [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: y would i want to go to your cottage anyway [23:55] ~*555 SouL*~: pft [23:56] ~*555 SouL*~: stupid french, I hate the french [23:56] Devastator: hahah [23:56] Devastator: you're funny [23:56] ~*555 SouL*~: shut it [23:56] ~*555 SouL*~: i don't want to hear your plesentries Session Close (~*555 SouL*~): Tue Jun 04 23:56:41 2002 

So yeah, that was the conversation we had. Mark has no right to be pissed off at me. It's his decision that he's not coming. He's not the third wheel. I dont know WHY he is even trying to manipulate me into doing what he wants to do.

A lot of people, including me, dont understand why he's being such a baby. He should be GLAD that people are including him in events. Where was he during school? Did he call me (or a few other people who will remain anonymous) during the weekends while he was back in town do to stuff? Nope.

"Why is it mark feels that he is a part of the loop now, that he can pick who can and can't come to your cottage, when 2 years ago he could of cared less who what where when why, especially when it came to you" someone said.

He even said "man, my social life is going to suck now that I am not in school anymore". Right then and there both Gord and I should have been pissed at him (but we aren't ass holes).

Mark, you are making your self mad. You are the one that is putting all this on you!

heh, not even sure if Gord can come anymore.

(let me know what you guys think of this situation)

In other news, I am going to the doctors tomorrow, at 11:30am. Yay! Then its off to Chinook to work, then off to CBC. Thursday, I am supposed to go bike riding with Mark during the day - then with Gord in the afternoon. Friday, no plans. Saturday, meeting up with Alex to talk geek stuff. I need to get some alagae (sp) eaters for my fish tank.

Still Sick
Monday, June 3, 2002 - 20:06:16 Permalink | On this day in 2006 | On this day in 2003

My mom is worried now. She urged me to make a doctors appointment. I have still been hacking away. I guess I should. I just dont really have the time! Humm work over health, not a good idea.

I didn't get off work until 2am this morning. I didn't mind - I put the blame on Cisco :)

I downloaded some music yesterday, finally updating my mp3 collection.

I was talking to Liz (not Lisette) yesterday. She mentioned that she is going to be in Playboy. Not sure if I 100% beleive her though. I will have to wait until I see it in print. She promised me that she would come up (she lives in Florida) to sign my copy.

Got my insurance stuff today. Seems like my policy is up for renewal. The cover letter says that my rates increased. I am not sure by how much. Last year I was paying $346.11 a month. (From memory, the papers are in the car) this year I will be paying $354.xx a month. That might be reduced however, since they show I have 2 minor convictions (speeding tickets) but my record only shows one (as the one I had 3 year ago disspeared).

Mark and I have been going biking at least 3 times a week. Thats good :) I want to go tomorrow, but it might rain. I just might go anyways.

Nothing really else new to report. I want to take some new pictures, but wait until I feel better. NO ENERGY!

Not seeing Lisette is driving me nuts! It doesn't even feel like we are going out. We never talk on the phone, she is hardly on irc. I'm busy, she's busy. Hopefully she can come to my cottage. Turns out its BEFORE her exams. So she just has to get parental approval (they are paying for school I think, and she is missing school).

Hello Mr. Sun!
Saturday, June 1, 2002 - 16:06:02 Permalink | On this day in 2005 | On this day in 2003 | On this day in 2001

Went out with Mark to Charlies for Courtney's b-day. Then headed to Shoeless at about 12am to meet up with Gavin, Brian, et al. Damon got into a fight, I didn't end up getting home until 4am. All in all, it wasn't a very good night (I was tired, shitty).

Today was amazing though. Mark and I went biking for about an hour before I had to go to work. I would have gotten up earlier, had I went to bed at 1 or 2. But Mark was driving last night , and he wanted to stay.

I want to chill with Lizette tonight, but she has to work tomorrow morning. Maybe we just grab some food/dinner maybe?



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